Me versus "Me"

Today, yups today,,,it is raining all d time since yesterday. Gezzzzzzzz,,,I feel so bored when I woke this morning. Njizzzzzzz,,still wanted to sleep, sleep and sleep but have to work.
Then, here I come, sitting in my room, in front of laptop and starting to write all this crap.

Should I go or Should I stay?
That question keeps ringing in my mind. What if your heart says different with your thought? Which one u should pick then?
Should I go or Should I stay? Bloodyyyy hard to choose.

Perhaps some of you already know the reason why I came up with that question. For the rest who don’t know,,,please bear in my mind not to ask anything excapt reading this crap.

Should I go?
I prefer to go because there is nothing left. Perhaps it is still something left but i feel like it useless to keep anymore. If I go, would I be happy? If I go, would I be strong enough to leave all things behind? I would answer this question with I don’t have no idea.

Should I stay?
I choose to stay because I deserve a second chance. In what purpose? To be happy!. Definitely I could answer it. I want to be happy. It has been a while for me for not feeling the freedom to be happy. Well, there is an obstacle. If I choose to stay it means,,,I have to fight like “joan of arc” and I’ve got to win. The only option is I have to win this battle (if I could say this is a battle).

Between the sorrow and the willingness to be happy, it is hardly to choose.
Every option will be leaving consequences.

Should I go?
The only consequences is I will loose the best thing and perhaps,,,just perhaps,,,I will get another. Am I ready to loose the best thing?

Should I stay?
The situation will be so pathetic but yups, I will get the best thing that I really really want,,, Am I ready to fight?

Which one that I will choose?
With vodka in my right hand and accompanied by my very best friend,,, I will make up my mind and choose between should I stay or should I go. Wish me luck,,,and I hope just hope that I could choose the right one.