My Journey of Dreams !

I want to write some of my achievement which has nothing to do with prizes.

Learning Neuro Linguistic Programme with Krishnamurti was such an amazing process for me. I know that I can change my life like the way I want through life learning with him. Then after deliberately used it, I know at that time I want :
1. Study Overseas in Europe with my own money or scholarship
2. Have my own psychological consultant
3. Have experiences to manage a national event
4. To be a collumnist
5. Have experience to be choosen as one of the candidates in magazine's contest what-so-ever.

and,voila !
1. I've got twice scholarship and able to go to Holland for study in 2005 & 2007. Yes indeed only for diploma programma but I'm able to do it by myself...not because of my parents or my boyfriend or my husband money.

2. Yes !! I've built my own office... under the name Personal Growth Center,you can open the web at www.personalgrowthcenter.wordpress.com. It was my dream to have my own office before 30 years old. Bloody hard but Damn Good !!

3. Believe it or not, I manage 2 national event that was held only in 1 week difference ! First as a chairperson in National Rotaract District Conference 2008 - Rotary Club and second as chairperson in Career Expo Central Java. Yes, I wanted to dissapear at that time because it was so hard to do it in the same time. Luckily I have a lot of great people behind me.

4. Still not having a superb achievement but yes I write in some magz and tabloid these days. Above all, I want to write in a national magz. Wish me luck !

5. Unbelievable experiences... I've be choosen as a semi finalist for fun fearless female cosmopolitan magazine 2009. I'm not becoming the finalist is because I know exactly I was so lame in interview section ! hahahaha, in front of those famous people, I'm just so terrified but indeed it was a great experience !!


My NEXT JOURNEY OF DREAMS : just wait, I'll reveal if it's coming true...

Reality Bites series 1

I will start a fact with not necessary fact with a cruel comment about it.

Fact 1.
I'm only 5'4 inch average with 1,64 m.

Fact 2.
I love dogs and I really hate people who hates dogs.
The fact that I love dogs makes me really judge people and avoid people who hates dogs. Pardonez-moi, but the attitude of being.."hiiii...ohhh, i'm so afraid of the dog" really make me itchy and want to slap them. Stand still, they won't bite anyway. Afterall, you eat their meat if it serves in the table !

Fact 3.
I don't like driving but I have to drive by myself. That's why these days I limit the frequent of driving.

Fact 4.
I love to hang out with my close friend. For me, there are 3 level of friend : a friend - a good friend and a close friend. A best friend ? It's only for my mom and my man.

Fact 5.
You will never believe in me, but I'm really open minded yet thrilling to do a new adventure ! such as what ? you'll never guess about it.

Fact 6.
I love sexy stuff. I mean sexy...it's sexy.

Fact 7.
I love ice-tea. I have to drink that once in a day. Not any ice-tea, a homemade ice-tea.

Fact 8.
Writting is my pleasure, though I don't have much time these days. If you caught me writting then that's the moment I can make love with life.

Fact 9.
I found myself not a musical person(though I learn to play piano since I was kids), not able to play any instrument, and not able to sing. I like to hear people play, sing or create a music but never ask me to do so.

Fact 10.
I don't like conflict. You'll find me rarely have a fight or a conflict. Some says it's really hard to make me angry. But yes, If I already feel insulted, I will act nicely then I will stab your life in front of your face and then I go away. Then be aware of me.


10 Fact for series 1 is enough ! I will continue again for the next round.

better ?

teriakanku seperti tak terdengar...lagi.
mungkin,

better not to yell nor to hail.
better not to say nor to ask.

mataku mendadak memejam...lagi.
mungkin,

better not to see
better not to try to see.

telingaku tak mampu menangkap secuil irama...lagi.
mungkin,

better not hear,
not to listen,
not be ever...never...catch the voice.

sampai kapan ?

status

statusku berubah.
bukan single,
bukan in a relationship,
bukan engaged,
atau
married.

statusku berubah.
status : in a flat moment !

muak !

rasanya sudah separuh jalan ku baca buku lama ini,
sepertinya halaman yang ada tak kunjung usai,
dan cerita semakin saja membosankan !

rasanya setiap larik kata yang tertuang, membuatku muntah !
rasanya setiap jejak pen yang pernah menancap, membuatku menganga !
rasanya setiap jemari yang pernah ku sesapkan untuk membalik, membuatku ingin menusuk !

cerita yang memuakkan !