an insane hormone called love

Hearing “I love you” is like a selective amnesia that I want to get rid of it,
But in the same time, “I love you” is like a medicine for me to recover from this insomnia syndrome on looking d rite of living.

What does “I love you” mean?

As far as I can recall, “I love you” consist of a bloody morone thing with a bit of hormone, insane!
Hormone that makes you thrilling, shaking, and feeling there is a butterfly in your stomach,,, that triggers you for kissing, holding hands, making love, and bla bla bla, sooooo a morone things.

How someone can say “I love you”?
Some will say, because it is love or because I can’t live without her/him.
Perhaps, others will shout because it makes our live so beautiful.

Stupid.
Should a relationship need “love”?
Hell yeah!!! Never makes any defense on that statement,dear (my friend is shouting out to me)
Well, if there’s love, why it always lay a cheating also? Where is the love anyway?

Because, love doesn’t mean you are a monogamist,,, (stupid answer from my friend)
Crappp!!! How come?
Well, you have many loves, why you should keep it for one partner? (hell no, dear!)
I love my girlfriend, well,, then I do like my other girlfriend, and I really want you to be wife,, (oh,dear,,,he talks to me as if he could get me so easily)
or,
we are friends. yeah, rite,,,friends in benefit.
perhaps term of friends will be changing sooner,,

Love?
Can we change that term with “an attachment”? or “an emotional dependency”? or something like “an obsessive thought”? or “an unusual feeling”?
Above all, can we just simplify that term into something realistic?

In my perception, “love” is like a fairytale word that doesn’t exist in the way I life.

Perhaps Im just a coward who isn’t brave enough to feel “love”,,,
Or maybe Im just so scared on feeling the butterfly in my stomach,,,

For me,
Still no such thing called love,
In a relationship, there is only one important thing that is commitment.
Period.

Ok,
We like each other,
Having emotional dependency,
sexual dependency,
But, that’s all.
If we don’t have any commitment on that relationship,,,it will be vanished.

Oh, I sound like a pitty lady who've ever felt the hardest part of love then try to forget it and be sarcastic in love. Hahahaha,,,who knows.

*trust me, you are the last*